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Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Cover of The Scientist by Coldplay

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' in tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin' at numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles, Chasin' tails
Comin' back as we are

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.


ahoo ooofail. ~_~

~me~ at 5:03 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

A pill as my pillow,
It cradles me to sleep.
On a cloudless night,
it's better than counting sheep

My pill with my pillow
let time pass me by.
Willingly caught in your trance,
the only way for tears to dry

My pill and my pillow
bear secrets that nobody will know.
A cipher that no one can crack
will be all I have before I go

Pretty soon I will give up.
My heart can take no more.
The life that I knew,
is no longer worth living for

Drag me one last time
to the place where we always go.
the more of you I take,
the more my eyes lose its glow

My pill and my pillow
what have you done to me?
Now all I will be
is a distant memory.

~me~ at 1:06 AM

Monday, July 20, 2009

Walalang.

What you do to me | Music Upload

I feel like a fish without the water
a bird without a tree
just like a star without the sky
or the sand without the sea
oh at the times that i miss you
that's what you do to me
that's what you do to me

I feel like a part of me is missing
a guitar without a string
just like the sounds without a melody
that's what you do to me
that's what you do to me

Everytime you go away
seems like nothing is okay

I feel like a phone without a number
a car without a wheel
maybe 'cause without you I am nothing
like a game without a cheat
that's what you do to me
that's what you do to me

* Bulol at paos. ngek!

~me~ at 2:07 AM

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Dating Analysis Part I

The concept of dating is fairly new to us pinoys. Dating is something brought about by a series of failures that have significantly diminished the quality of lives for millions and millions of people. It's in our genetic makeup that we would want and need someone to spend our lives with. Thus being said, we should be able to choose who that person would be. That's where dating comes in.

A few years back, I didn't have a clue on what this was for. I was one with the crowd. I thought that when two people go to the mall, it's a date - but no, it's not. For a date to be called a date, both parties must be aware of the parameters of the engagement. The validity of a date often falls on the hands of the woman. A man would ask a woman out for a lot of reasons, but when he asks a woman out alone, more often than not, it means something. It's just up to the woman if it also means something for her. There are three common reasons why dates happen; To know each other, to evaluate one another, and to have fun. A date is something like a job interview that lasts longer. The only difference is that you might be interviewing your future boss.

After a few eye openers, I learned that dates - specifically the first ones are more significant than the ones that would follow. This is the part where the participants are in the dark, not knowing what to say or not to say, what catches each others' attention and what turns them away. The success of this phase secures future dates. This is also the part where people are in their most vulnerable stage - notably more in men than in women - because women, of course, have powers far beyond those of mortal men.

Women would make great spies because they have picked up a lot of espionage skills in dating. Women notice the slightest of hints that would make them like or dislike their date. The quality of the restaurant, the spontaneity of their date's acts, even the difference in their date's voice. But don't get me wrong, some men do notice these things too, but not as good as a woman does. Women react to these things more than men.

When a man asks a woman out, it's a dead giveaway that he likes her. When a woman agrees, however, it doesn't mean that she likes him too, but she is interested in what might happen. Rejection, however, whether upfront or just silent treatment, mean only one thing.- NO. The silent treatment also tells you that she's considerate, but still, NO..

Ultimately, there are not much mistakes that you can commit in a date when respect and honesty is deployed. The most common mistake people make in a date is that people try to make their dates like them. It works sometimes but it sure doesn't get you very far. People should try to know each other and not only flaunt those things that are "likeable" about you. A blanket of honesty nullifies those superhuman skills of women.

People view their imperfections as bad things that should never be brought up, but no, these imperfections, they are the good stuff. It's not the things you're proud of that makes you unique, but your imperfections and how you make it bearable.

Happy dating! :)

~me~ at 10:07 PM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

A desperate attempt at a classic.

*pasensya ulit sa off-notes at boses ><

Cover of Frank Sinatra's In The Wee Small Hours Of The Morning

in the wee small hours of the morning | Online recorder

In the wee small hours of the morning
While the whole wide world is fast asleep
You lie awake and think about the girl
And never ever think of counting sheep

When your lonely heart has learned its lesson
Youd be hers if only she would call
In the wee small hours of the morning
Thats the time you miss her most of all

* Debie, this song is for you :D
* First song recorded using headset mic
* First song recorded using my Joyce guitar :D
* Recorded in the wee hours of the morning. haha
* I have no idea how the original version is played. I listened to John Mayer's version and went with it. haha

~me~ at 3:20 AM

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Cover of The Script's I'm Yours

You touched these tired eyes of mine
And mapped my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine

I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap your thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours

And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

You healed these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes

*I had to cut the song short because my unlicensed audio converter can only convert up to 210secs
*Imbento lang yung guitars. haha! wala kasing tab e.
*Elise, this song is for you. :D. Pasensya kung kinakapos ako ng hininga palagi haha.

~me~ at 7:36 PM

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

My first song with a TITLE.

Miss A-Z. Pasensya ulit sa boses at sa recording. Sabi ko nga kay meme, nasa lyrics naman eh!

Miss A-Z | Upload Music

Miss A-Z
i'm wondering
what you're thinkin bout me
is this song worth your time?

Miss A-Z
i wondering why you keep me out and
is this something we could talk about

over coffee
or a movie
whatever makes you happy

cause i can't wait till we get older
i want to know you better
i want your head down on my shoulder
i want to have you closer

Miss A-Z
i think i can remember all the times
that i've been with you

Miss A-Z
i know you hide behind your smile and
is this something we could talk about

over coffee
or a movie
whatever makes you happy

take your time in saying no
so i can say that i am just taking it slow

cause i can't wait till we get older
i want to know you better
i want your head down on my shoulder
i want to have you closer
cause you're something else
and i can't let that pass

Miss A-Z
i'm wondering
what you think about this
is it all worth your time?

~me~ at 2:10 AM

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

the 15-minute song challenge.

give me a title | Upload Music

Funny how simple things become beautiful once it catches your eyes.
It's crazy how you make me feel
you hold me with a smile to kill
i think it's fine to be mesmerized

so you get what you deserve
i'm running out of words
and just in case i won't recover

i want to say some things
when you're not one click away
i want to say it
when it happens
i want to know you're real
and tell me what's the deal
i wanna know what to do when i feel like i would miss you
you've got to tell me
how to reach you
you've got to tell me
cause i
i want to reach you now

~me~ at 10:33 AM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

My first song with intros and adlibs. . I really need someone to sing this for me. Pagpasensyahan ninyong muli ang aking boses.

untitled | Music Upload

*mixed with Windows media player, winamp and sound recorder. I don't know why my pc is incompatible with adobe audition. It could've been a lot easier to put together if i had it. Ah, timing. Thou art a heartless bitch.

*edit* ngayon ko lang nalaman, may ibang audio mixing tool pala. nagpakahirap pa ako. psh.

Lyrics

I could have changed
I guess I always knew
This ship was sinking
suppose i got
too tired of thinking

I could wait forever
for bad to become good
we could wait a lifetime
to be heard and understood

i just think about you
and it goes away
keep thinking *i could wake up
to this everyday

and walk in the fields
as i watch the sun smile for you
cause everytime i see your face
my heart smiles too*

we could have changed
i guess we always knew
our hearts were beating
i think we're stuck
in the beginning

You're saying you won't be that
but nothing ever changes
things may look the same
but life just rearranges

** meme and jeca's lines.
.

~me~ at 9:34 PM

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

This is a tribute for the romantic martyrs. For the lack of a better term, you have been branded as such because you are governed by your strong will to please someone while selflessly sacrificing your own immediate happiness. This is dedicated to those who are never reciprocated at times when they truly deserve appreciation, and to those who are insensitively utilized just because they show that they don't expect anything in return.

This is for the people who can withstand mending someone else's heart while breaking their own. This is for the pain you endured while listening to her when she unraveled how perfect her date was while you're establishing a façade to make it appear that you're happy that she's happy but deep inside you're gradually losing hope of being truly happy. This is for the moments when you watched from a distance as she adores one person after the other, completely overlooking your predisposition as a prospect. This is for the time when you unconsciously surrendered to the fact that you can do nothing more than just being a friend. This is for the moments when you felt that you could do something more but she never looked at you in a different light. This is for the time when you wanted to be useful to someone who doesn't need you.

This is for the time when you needed someone to lean to, but all your hints have apparently bounced off her mind. This is for the pain that nobody knew about. This is for the night when your heart felt like it was stabbed and the weakening sensation radiates from your chest down to your toes. This is for the hundreds of times that you've said that you'd take no more, but with just a hint that she needs you, you'll come back to her rescue. This is for the words that you had the guts to say but couldn't say it anyway.

You often worry because you might miss the opportunity of helping her out. You might also be aware that she might be holding back so that she doesn't hurt you much, just to keep you around. You are branded as masochists because people think that you require pain to feel accomplishment, but in reality, pain is just a consequence for a greater goal of keeping someone happy. You often doubt yourself because you do not know what your strengths are anymore. At times you might think back, admiring what you've endured and how other people could've succumbed at the first signs of pain, but a while later, you despise your weakness in not being able to move on.

I genuinely believe that it takes a lot of courage to be adamant with the intent of keeping somebody happy, but it requires a lot more than courage to move on. I also believe that there's a significant amount of reason behind this kind of martyrdom. It might seem foolish at times, but martyrs often think that the person he/she loves is worth it, but in reality, he or she is never really worth it.

For all the things you endure in this world, you are worth far more than just some bitch or jerk who failed to realize how lucky they are to have someone who can put up with their insensitivity. I know that somewhere inside you, you know that you deserve to be treated better. For all the things you can do, you are more than a gift to someone else. Someone who will treat you better. Someone who will share and reciprocate. There are people in this world who will realize your worth.

Happiness is just around the corner. Take your time. Move on. Be happy.

~me~ at 9:41 PM

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

~me~ at 3:43 PM

I don't know when I got bitter
but love is surely better when it's gone
-Tonic, You wanted more

People often feel this way when it comes to love. When it's gone, that's the time we feel love again. We remember how it was, we imagine how it could be. The fact is, we don't try to keep it together when there's nothing pulling it apart.

It's the general idea when it comes to love, or life. We remember the extreme ideas of what it was and how it started and how it ended. There's a moment in life where it's all good. There's enough money, time, you even have something interesting to keep you busy. You might even have someone to spend your perfect life. But when everything is perfect, it wont matter. It's always the way up or the way down. No one thinks about what happens in between because you'd never really enjoy the moment when it's all put together, because it probably never really is. Even when everything is fine, being fine means there is something wrong. It's wrong mostly because only a few people realize that they are taking it for granted.

For the most of us, being on the way up and on the way down means everything to our story. It's how we want our story to be heard. Even when things are fine, people still find a way to disrupt the monotony of just being "fine" - because those moments when things fall apart are just setting you up for the moment where you put it back together. People feel redefined after picking up the pieces. But in reality, when you put the pieces back, you still get the same figure.. plus the cracks and fissures.

If you think about it, every love story has a huge piece missing. Take The Notebook for an example. We know how Noah and Allie started, we knew how they ended up. But no one really knows what happened in between. The 50 years that they omitted from the story could be the good parts. Maybe when that part of the story is told, we'd know why they loved each other that much. We're amazed because we thought that it's not normal to have such a commitment, but the truth is, stuff like that happen everyday. Not everyone gets to tell their story, and not everyone knows that their story is worth telling.

It can happen to you. Maybe it already happened to you. You might've had the best time of your life and you're just too preoccupied with your thirst for drama to see it.

So is your story worth telling?

Or are you just too blind to see it?

~me~ at 12:33 AM

Monday, April 13, 2009

Three weeks ago, i purchased a new guitar. It wasn't an impulse buy. In fact, I've been saving for it for months.

Last January, I saw this guitar at my friend's music shop. It was a Silvertone SD50 guitar with a limited-edition red sunburst design. It was definitely an eye catcher. It was one of kuya tony's display instruments, which means it's a bit pricey. I wanted to try if it feels and sounds as good as it looks, and when i did, it felt and sounded better than any guitar i've ever played. Right then I knew that I've got to have it.

I name my guitars usually after sexy actresses, but for this guitar, I named it after a friend.

Ladies and gentlemen,

JESSICA.

When I saw that guitar, a part of my brain linked it to one of Jeca's photos- the one with the red dress. She rocked that dress and it would be very fitting to name my guitar after her, so that one day, when I'm a legend and i'm writing my autobiography, i'd say that i named this guitar after someone who looks very good in red. XD

I saved up and worked twice as hard to purchase that guitar... and two months later, I was ready to purchase my dream guitar... but then I found out that it was purchased two weeks before I showed up. It broke my heart =(

Three weeks ago, i got an IM from kuya tony. He said that he would be exclusively distributing Yamaha instruments and because of that, he couldn't sell other brands anymore. He also told me that he had another Silvertone SD50 but only in its natural finish. He offered me a whopping 50% discount and so i took it. We met someplace and he gave me the complete package. Gig bag, tuning kit, spare DiAddario string set, a guitar strap, and a set of guitar pics.

I went home with a big smile on my face. I just bought my best guitar ever.

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I was jamming a while ago with my mom. My mom, at 59, still knows how to play rhythm. So here we are (btw, my mom is using the jessica guitar) my mom at rhythm and me playing lead.

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~me~ at 10:43 AM

Thursday, March 05, 2009

I've always been a fan of relationships. I think it started when my ate mayen and kuya jimbo started dating. Nobody ever knew about it - or maybe I was kept in the dark because I was too young then to know what it is. Since then I was intrigued. I want to know how relationships start, how it supposedly ends, how it starts again, what happens next, how to get there, how to avoid certain moments, how to know which moments to avoid and which ones to go for, and how to keep it.

Upon reaching adolescence, I had a taste of my own curiosity. I learned then that not all relationships are as perfect as the one my sister has. I screwed up most of the time. It wasn't clear then why I was so bad at something I was always curious about. Then I went to college, and time added a mix to the illusion that i thought was a relationship : love. Then it all started to make sense. Everything went well for xnumberofdaysmonthsoryears, then i screwed everything up - but that's not the one i want to discuss.

Relationships primarily revolve around LOVE. The problem is, 80% (hypothetical statistic) of people either overestimate or underestimate that feeling. Now I may not be the one to tell you what love is, since i screw it up almost everytime, but my experience as a screwup can tell you what love is not.

Love is not always with a person - You might think that you love a person but it's actually only something with him/her that you love. You might love how he/she looks and what he/she does but you might not love the person at all. The only stable definition of love that I know is that everything is harder without it. Change is inevitable with every couple. Some adapt and compromise, others do not survive. Those who do, love the other person itself.

Love is not an exact science - This is the reason why there is no Love-ology. People tend to think that if you follow a certain set of rules, you'd be living happily ever after with the one you love. The effect of every rule or every advice about love varies. There is no definite outcome for any advice that you might want to follow. People (such as myself) give out suggestions (such as my previous posts) because we've been through a certain experience that might be the same as the one you are experiencing right now.

Love is not a switch that you can turn on and off - It is always ON. Once you shut it off, it's the end. Can i not elaborate this? this is really twisting my brains out. But in a way, you get it, right?

Love is not destined - Three years ago, a young, smart, pretty and hot girl once asked me if i believed in destiny. I was dumb then, so i said YES. Months passed before i realized that that was a line from the movie The Matrix. In a way, I agreed with what the movie said. The same goes with everything else. Therefore I don't believe in destiny(fate) because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life. In love, of course, you don't have control of everything, but everything that happens in love is just a chain reaction of things that you did before.

Love is not a fairytale - In real life, if a prince traveled around the world for a person that he never saw and never talked to, he'd be tagged as a fool. If a princess woke up to a kiss from someone that she doesn't recognize, and made out with him even more, she'd be a whore. If you still believe in love at first sight, then you should break your heart more.

The truth is, love is what you make it. We learn it everytime we do something wrong. We think we're doing the right thing until something screws up the illusion. Each love feels different. There is no better love - because if you can sincerely feel love for one person today, that's the best love you've ever had.

~me~ at 8:19 PM

Saturday, February 28, 2009

jeca: kamusta na blog mo?
towi: patay pa din
jeca: nako!
jeca: haha!
jeca: bakit wala ka maisip bagong entry?
towi: eh.. wala na eh.
towi: haha
towi: ano ba magandang entry?
jeca: ako
jeca: hahahhha
jeca: JOKE LANG!
jeca: ginaya ko lang si meme
jeca: xD
towi: hahaha
towi: sige ikaw nalang.
jeca: waaaaaaaaaa
jeca: biro lang yun
towi: sa totoo lang, i was hoping na sasabihin mo yun
towi: nyaahahaha

It's not like that i never thought about writing an entry about Jeca, i just needed something to secure my butt just in case i wasn't allowed to. I was this cautious since the moment that I asked for her number and well.. i failed.

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry. You don't know how lovely you are.

This and probably a thousand lines more from random songs remind me of Jeca. It's like the fragments of her awesomeness are scattered all around the globe, and songwriters are writing about it.

You're the beauty that is deeper
than eyes can merely see
the closest thing to perfect
but the farthest thing from me

Trust me - These lines? I wrote it. The band just thought about it first. haha.

Anybody that has been within two feet of her will sense that she's special. It's strange how a simple smile can throw somebody off-balance. Her voice itself will make you want to listen. And her eyes - It may be a good thing that she doesn't like to be stared at, because once you make an eye contact with her, you'll feel like you've bared your soul and she's looking straight right through you. You'll flinch before she even winks. It may seem that I'm exaggerating on this post, but I must say that this is the only way to describe her. She is a deep person, and so is her beauty.

It's not that hard to have a conversation with her. She senses when you're having a hard time communicating or expressing yourself. She makes things easier. She likes it when you go straight to the point, but she hates it when you're being insensitive. Even when we're chatting online, she sets up the mood by making my name look exciting (towi!!!! < like that). She probably is the least boring person that I know. I knew she was amazing beforehand, but there's a ton of things about her that I don't know.

Since I've slipped far too many times with my words, she learned to laugh it off and treat my screwups as pickup lines. But now, since this blog is my kingdom, and I am king, I can now confidently say that most of those lines that you've deemed copied from another source are genuine. and they came out unbelievably cheesy - and that's why I opted to save myself from humiliation and made it look like i got it somewhere. @_@ I just can't help it. She's probably tired of all the compliments but when you see someone like her in my eyes, it will never be enough. Something will compel you to say something cute and stupid.

I'm at the end of my post and I still feel like there's something missing. I might've missed a few details- I'll edit this as soon as i remember them.

I'm ending the love month with a smile.

Oh, I almost forgot..

Can i please have your number? :D

~me~ at 7:06 PM

Saturday, January 17, 2009

How to put the perfect smile on her face

The love month is coming, and surely enough, almost all of us want the perfect moment, in a perfect place, with the perfect date, on the perfect day. Sadly, the quest for perfection requires a lot more than just blending in with what everybody else does. If you want this day to be perfect, then you have to be extraordinary.

Being extraordinary doesn't mean that you have to be public with what you do. Most women are uncomfortable with public displays. You just have to be subtle with what you do. It's not easy to sweep someone off their feet. Timing helps. Spontaneity adds to the drama. But whatever you do, these things won't work unless you have a sincere agenda of making her happy.

I have a few suggestions, some of which i have tried before - and i guarantee, that with the right timing and the right words, you'll see the perfect smile on her face.

Music Covers - The Mixed tape is out. Dedicating videos on youtube is totally out. Now, if you can make your own version of her favorite songs, that would be unique. Regardless if you do a good cover or not, the effort itself will be enough. Music videos are in too. Make a fool out of yourself by filming yourself while lipsynching her favorite songs. Who knows, she might like it. :D

Puzzles - It's a little hard for women to take you seriously, especially when you're perceived as a laid-back type of guy. You might want to express how serious you are by exerting a little more effort into what you do. Let's say you're planning to ask her out on a date. Slip a little puzzle into which the answer/conclusion whatever is making an impression on you asking her out. It's a little act that goes unnoticed, but it will hopefully change their impressions on you.

Birthday Greeting Stunt - let's say you're looking for some place to eat, go to a restaurant that has a birthday routine - the routine some restos have, where the staff will sing a birthday song, probably acting out their routine, in a surprise for their customer. This works better if that day is NOT her birthday. Now, there might not be a smile at her face at first, but the initial reaction - PRICELESS.

Roses - Now, this is probably the cheapest, but by far the most effective thing that you can purchase as far as cost and effect is concerned. For some reason, I really don't understand why girls love roses.. I am only sure that it works. Roses symbolize something in our subconscious that is relatively difficult to explain. Make that vague impression an advantage. But for the dramatic effect, I suggest that you find creative ways on giving your roses. Do a magic trick. Slip it inside her bag. Close her eyes and give her the rose. Have the security guard give it for you. Send it on a paper plane. Attach notes to it such as "Just because it's tuesday" or other stuff. Make gift stuffings out of petals. Send it through a toy car. Have your mom give it for you (haha) - any of these things will do. As long as it's creative, it will work.

Spontaneous Trips - This is possible if you own a car. If you're in for a night out, the beach would probably be a nice place to stay. Just laying in the sand, and if possible, you can create a bonfire for the two of you. I tried this before and i should say that the serene silence of the sea, with only the waves creating sound, it creates a perfect setting for a romantic evening.

Amusement Parks - The Enchanted Kingdom is at the top of the list on this one. Again, timing is everything. You might want to catch the fireworks. I think it's at 9pm. You can set up the perfect view by riding the wheel while watching the fireworks. And who knows, you might get kissed. ayiii XD

Live Bands/Concerts - This is a common thing among gimikeros, but for those who are just above the legal age *bang* this will be the perfect opportunity for you guys to enjoy your favorite bands performing live. You can make a more dramatic outcome for this if she doesn't have a clue about where you're going.

And lastly, don't forget to give her a rose every now and then. . Try giving her a rose on February 15 - It reminds her that you don't need a special day to remind her that she is special (only if you're sincere about it though).

I kept the best ones for myself. haha! who knows, I might use it someday.

I hope these suggestions helped you. Have a good day and happy lovin! :D

~me~ at 2:22 AM